jiaxin

2010-11-07T23:51:00.004+08:00

Excuses.

Well, i found out that my friends always do not have time for me but for others.

I just do not have anything much to say.

They have money to go out with others too.

Wow. How great are friends?

It's the effort seriously.

I do not see any.

Just feel like talking.

But I doubt anyone would see..

2010-05-05T14:39:00.003+08:00

I've decided to keep my hair long(:
Please remind me not to cut even if it is thick=/

2010-04-07T21:30:00.004+08:00

Do you ever feel this before?

There are things that make you happy,

and you remember it for long.

Though it does not worth any penny,

you're still happy.

Something that came from the heart.

I suddenly thought of my dad.

Remembering that he had sent me messages via sms every year.

Even thought he might be busy working,

and even overseas when we seldom get to meet,

he never fail to do it.

He doesnt forget..

2010-03-17T12:35:00.001+08:00

haha my blog is so dead

yet I dont know what to write=/

2010-02-25T12:00:00.002+08:00

2010-02-11T13:15:00.001+08:00

xkcd.com

Though we'll be laughing at someone else who did this.

Well, somtimes these are just small little things we might quarrel over.

Nevertheless, we quarrel so many times.

-
It's gonna be 1year and 1month soon.

Hope we'll not because of them end up like they do. x3

2010-02-09T20:14:00.001+08:00

www.xkcd.com

2010-02-08T13:47:00.004+08:00

www.xkcd.com

2010-02-07T20:45:00.003+08:00

Comments for Individual:

Jiaxin, you are smarter than most students and it should not be a problem for you to do well in PBL if you can improve on your team collaboration. Be more sensitive towards others' feeling and start afresh in your new class :)

From Mr Wong

My Cognitive faci

Can you see that! I'm smarter than most students.

Well, I dont think my school is that bad that I'm one of the smartest right?=/

But well, I'm still bad at team work.

I think my class dont like a leading person.

Okay, that's end of W47L.

Next sem would be a better one!

2010-02-04T21:03:00.005+08:00

At times, we are really conscious but we just want to act that we dont know.

We just want to get out of the reality.

Because the answer weren't what we want.

Sometimes, we just believe them because we're scared that it really might happen.

Human are just scared of the happenings that they cant predict,

or might be curious.

We always try to know more, try to predict.

However, failed without scientific reasoning.

These were just false hope, false imaginations.

Horoscope, god, beliefs, luck, still revolving around us, because there are people who believe them.

Nevertheless, As the saying goes, ling ke xing qi you...

Do you believe?

2010-02-04T10:29:00.003+08:00

Cheer up CHY, I'm always there for you if you need.

I feel sad when my friend does=/

Wonder why does it affects me.

Anyway, my love pass his ippt with silver.♥

2010-01-31T19:10:00.003+08:00

This lyrics is damn nice.

Though it's a jap song=/

Cassis

I always did the same thing over and over

I always just made you sad

I'm sure I even hurt you

I still cant move

Why is it so painful to touch you?

Surely it's because I was scared

I'd do the same thing over and lose you

By drawing close, I tried to wipe away

That day I couldnt quite forget

You didnt ask anything

Just held my hand

Even if tomorrow your feelings are far away

I'll still love you without fail

Even if tomorrow you cant see me

I'll still love you without fail

I will talk together, the future not promised

It keeps walking together, to the future in which you are

It even makes me forget the hard times

I love you so much

Everytime I count the nights I cant see you

My heart yearns for you

The loneliness grows with each misunderstanding

Please dont cry alone

Let's believe in each other

No matter how far apart we are

I want to stay smiling like this

Dont make me hurt you

I dont want to repeat that feeling

That lessened as time passed

Even if tomorrow your feelings are far away
I'll still love you without fail
Even if tomorrow you cant see me
I'll still love you without fail
Plesae look only at me

Please dont let go of my hand

I will talk together, the future not promised
It keeps walking together, to the future in which you are...

2010-01-29T09:48:00.006+08:00

Wish my life end quickly without dying on purpose.

Want to shout out loud.

Want someone who can listen to my problems.

Want someone who understand my stand.

Why cant I speak to someone.

Why cant I pour everything out.

Why I feel so bad.

Why do I not know what to do,

how to feel.

I dont even know what I want,

what I need.

And here I am, talking rubbish.

Just feel like talking non-stop,

about everything.

BUT, no, there isnt anyone there who knows.

Just listen,

listen to my voice,

my heartbeat,

how I feel.

Okay, thats crap, too.

I'm selfish,

so why do there should not be anyone listening to me.

I should be listening.

I SHOULD BE LISTENING,

STOP BEING SELFISH.

Sorry, I'm just talking to myself.

But I want to write it down.

Dont bother to read this.

Dont need to take it to heart.

I'm just writing crap which I dont even know what I'm writing about.

Just not myself.

2010-01-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

2010-01-27T11:27:00.002+08:00

Dear Jiaxin,

I love you.

You have a nice body (there~).

You make me go crazy at times.

You should think a little more like a human....

Someday I will marry you:).

You + me = 128kg ? lol nope . its eternity.

If I saw you now I'd embrace you.

I want to hug you, hold you, kiss you.

I would build a paper planeXD just for you.

If I could sing you any song it would be "something worth living for".

We could forever, enjoy each others' company under the stars.

Love,Jonathan Kay

(P.S. the 128 kg kinda means it's time for you to go on diet.)

28th July 2009

So sweeeeeettt:D

2010-01-19T10:05:00.002+08:00

COOKIES!

2010-01-19T09:49:00.004+08:00

SAYS: Happy Birthday Manda Ong! (This is just a late post though=/)

2010-01-05T13:35:00.002+08:00

I felt pity for this girl but some of my friends said she deserve it :(

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/caught_in_the_act/300696/4_men_harass_woman_at_countdown_party_but_no_one_helped.html

2010-01-04T17:01:00.027+08:00

2010-01-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

School holiday has just ended.

Guess what.

I'm just waiting for another long school holiday.

I just hope that the years would fly pass quickly.

2009-12-30T14:26:00.001+08:00

HUBBY IS BACK!<3

2009-12-27T21:43:00.003+08:00

Settled.

Relief.

Nevertheless, still a long way to go..

This is a joke by Ching Houyee.
Chyت says:
I dont know she want or not
She come back then us
Hahahah
ask* -.-

2009-12-26T16:57:00.001+08:00

messed up

2009-12-22T13:46:00.001+08:00

Traces of you everywhere

2009-12-12T17:52:00.003+08:00

I am missing you, more than I usually do.

Like part of my world has tear apart.

I can sense you anywhere I go, knowing that you're worrying about me.

Yet I can't touch, smell or see you like I did.

Time is passing so slowly that it seems like years to me.

Can you hear me shouting for you in my heart

Shouting for you in my heart..

Tears are falling down like waterfall that never stops until the sun dry the water up

I'm waiting for you.. love

2009-12-06T17:00:00.001+08:00

Never wanted anything in return when doing good for someone I love or care for<3

2009-12-05T16:29:00.004+08:00

Life

Everyone or maybe the majority goes through the same thing in life, we grow up.

When we were a baby, we drink milk and sleep.

When we were a child, we study and play.

When we become an adult, we expose to the world, experience the world, work.

When we are old, we enjoy life, waiting for death.

This is systematic because we cannot skip any of it.

It is a procedure that we would go through.

Our objective are the same, we want to satisfy our needs in life.

It can be happiness, luxury or others to different people.

Our testing method is to using our feelings to feel.

If we meet our objective, if not, strive for the better.

Inference is of course our satisfaction.

Advantage of is experiment are to get idea of how interesting life can be, in a good way. (Hardwork, Persistent)

Disadvantage can be the bad side of human.

Example, to achieve their objective, they can be cruel like killing someone for money.

Limitations is that we cannot control their life to be exactly the same, everyone has a different demographic.

Therefore, I think that life is a systematic experiment that everyone has to go through.

Extracted from my RJ=/

2009-11-27T23:27:00.001+08:00

my hubby is jealous that i only write post for my friend.

and this is yours.

i love you more than anything else.

haha =P

2009-11-09T22:18:00.002+08:00

Everyone is so busy with their life right now.

Though we walk in different way,

I know that we'll all be sucuessful women one day.

All the best...

Specially to my good friend for many years, pursuing your career..

Shirley Soon.

2009-10-27T09:53:00.001+08:00

Just suddenly feel like posting it(:

2009-10-04T00:11:00.003+08:00

I dont know why but i felt a sudden urge or pain.

I felt that there is something missing,

When i went through my loves blogs.

I miss the times where we once together.

I felt so far..

Yet near.

Because i know, they are still always there.. for me.

I feel like spending time with more ppl,

Yet i cant take the time out.

This is life.

I truely miss everyone so much, so much..

Meet up soon.

2009-09-20T20:14:00.010+08:00

2009-09-01T23:59:00.004+08:00

I think zi lian once in a while it's okay right?

Well...

Anyway, it's because i have a new hair style.

So i just wanna try taking photo.

Please bear with me for just once, i guess?

And... here it goes!

THE END.

2009-09-01T01:03:00.003+08:00

I dreamt last night..

FLOOD - Denotes sickness, loss in business, and the most unhappy and unsettled in the marriage state.

PAIL - To see a young woman to be carrying a pail denotes household employment.

SCHOOL - To dream of attending school. indicates distinction in literary work. If you think you are young and at school as in your youth, you will find that sorrow and reverses will make you sincerly long for a simple trust and pleasures of days of yore.

FLOATING - Denotes that you will victoriously overcome obstacles which one seemingly overwhelming you.

CHAIR - Denotes failure to meet some obligation. If you are not careful you will also vacate your most profitable places.

I find it contridict abit.

And, i dont quite actually understand some of them. haha=x

that's all for the day. good night.

2009-09-01T00:51:00.003+08:00

pokemon

power ranger!

dont be amaze by those. these are what he owes-.-

chris is the green car. DIAO KIA sia. he got 5 kids in total!

i think hubby just look like a retard

2009-08-21T16:43:00.000+08:00

You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it.

Or when you don't want something and you remove it.

Pleasure is always relative.

Happiness is absolute.

Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect.

The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.

2009-08-19T16:11:00.009+08:00

2009-08-18T08:22:00.010+08:00

2009-08-05T09:44:00.006+08:00

SENTOSA<3

2009-07-27T18:03:00.003+08:00

it is more than just you and me.
that's how life should be.
nobody wants it this way too.
we know this dont we?
-
there is always obstacle in between.
it's about how we overcome.
not about what is the obstacle.
i hope we can prove them wrong,
whoever it is..

if we dont even go through these obstacle together,

how are we know that we are right for each other.

doing is more important than saying.

that is the way to prove.

it's not about words but action.

i just hope you understand.

believe,

trust,

work hard and never give up will lead us to our future which people cant see.

edited.

how can i put my feelings into words.

where can i vent my anger to.

where can i find a shoulder to lead on.

who can i tell my unhappy things to.

what am i suppose to do.

who can really understand how i feel.

who can really understand what position am i in now.

there is no one to turn to.

i feel like giving up, yet not.

i am so confuse with what to do.

someone please tell me,

someone please help me,

please guide me.

tell me what is right and wrong,

what is reasonable what is not.

what i hate most about life is it's ever changing.

2009-07-25T21:29:00.002+08:00

i think it's time to get a new life.

really, i brand new life.

i wonder how would it be like.

but i dont really look forward to it.

night life?

money Proity?

yea.. kinda.

just like everyone does.

it's time for a change...

i love you, and always will..

2009-07-24T17:08:00.012+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW!~

though is ytd.

is the picture abit outdated. haha.

well, the night was great.

yea, of cos not chris's beat it. LOL.

2009-06-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

saying it out,

making it worse.

i still dont see the difference to it.

i have never seen love patient before in any way.

or am i blind?

2009-06-16T22:32:00.004+08:00

not only having low IQ but EQ too.

i need a guardian.

i need support.

i tried to compromise.

i tried to control.

i tried to hide.

i tried my best.

humans can never get enough of everything.

they would yearn for more and more and more.

so tell me what is enough.

love is emotion, a feeling of warm.

love is patient and kind.

it protects, preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life.

love should be experienced and not only felt.

the deep of love cannot be measured.

love need commitment, tolerance.

love includes compatibility.

love is to be together, sharing joy and sorrow, understanding each other, provide space for each other, but always be there for each other.

love doesn't make the world go round, it is what makes the ride worthwhile

love is sometimes luck, you have to go all the way to find it

love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness

love stretches your heart and makes you big inside

love is like war, easy to begin but hard to end

love set us free from all weight and pain

love is an act of endless forgiveness

love is the irresistible desire

love is friendship set on fire

love is a gift from heaven

love can never go wrong

love is adventure

love is devotion

love is nature

love is strong

wait.. dont be amaze by the sentence.

this is what i found on internet.

i dont know much about love.

that's why i'm going through everything to understand.

what i know now, love is something beautiful(:

love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.

by William Shakespeare

2009-06-13T14:37:00.006+08:00

2009-06-10T16:16:00.006+08:00

2009-06-04T22:58:00.004+08:00

i found something interesting today when i was jogging at gym,

which i found it interesting.

even though you're in pain,

you can ignored it just to achieve your goal.

because you are concentrating.

well, we can always apply that to our life isnt it?

achieving our goal is the most important thing.

how pain is it doesnt matter,

what matter is the result.

okay, that was random.

just ball today.

i dont know was i not on form,

or was i not the mood to play.

still, thanks everyone for coming.

the more the merrier(:

going to malaysia tmr morning at 7 or 8.

gonna miss everyone.

miss me too yea? haha.

if everything's not gonna solve today,

i think i'll not enjoy my trip at all.

but well, from what i know, i did my best.

i dont know what went wrong...

i missed your gentle smile:(

2009-06-04T14:07:00.003+08:00

i'm sucha loser, which nobody likes.

why?

i dont know what to do.

i dont know what you really want.

am i a tool to you.

suddenly, i wonder if everything's right.

thanks chy.

i need to ball to relief stress=/

seriously, i dont know why am i living in this world for..

2009-05-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

my current class scores for different modules...

science

conclusion:deproving

maths

conclusion:improving

programming

conclusion:deproving

problem solving

conclusion:deproving

enterprise

conclusion:constant

anyway, i still think i did badly for all my UT(s).

i still having one more tmr though.

science...

well, very good luck to me.

my science is power.

o level getting D7 when everyone is telling me it's easy-.-

tmr is maths lesson..

hope it will be a good day.

i am happier nowadays:D

because we are quarrelling lesser..=/

2009-05-24T21:03:00.003+08:00

HAHA! i found it in my hp. so funny:D

2009-05-16T14:09:00.001+08:00

almost paradise
even warmer than the sun
the gaze with which you look at me
is like being on top of the world
-
in my life
it's just like sunlight in my weary life
as long as i can have the love you give me forever
if you can love me forever
grab your hand and shout to the world
swear by the sky
that i will only love you forever
like the starlight in the night sky
a beautiful dream that only belongs to us
-
let's go to paradise
i only want to be with you
i can go anywhere, to my paradise
the days when i lost you
forget about all the pain
right now is the beginning, being with you
let's start travelling
let's start running
loving you forever
-
almost paradise
even warmer than the sun
the gaze with which you look at me
is like being on top of the world
-
in my life
it's just like sunlight in my weary life
as long as i can have the love you give me forvever
you are all of my love
you are all of my life
i will love you with my everything

2009-05-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

2009-05-10T18:45:00.005+08:00

they are making candies. looks yummy. isnt it?(:

i always thought that other countries sky were nice.

thinking why Singapore isnt.
there was once when i had the time to take a glance at the sky,

i knew i was wrong to say that..

a fishing place at kranji i think.

i find there quite nice.

jianing, my dumb sister.

eeee..

big fish, but i dont know what type is it.

shark. scary=/

the villa at fishing place.

i find the place quite nice to hold a party or something.

they had villa, the place is quite nice.
we can fish and book a kind of bic which use electric or petrol.

can bbq.

the place is quite big.

they have a bar inside.

but the place must take shutter(i dont know if it's spell like this) bus.

my class. they having some short clip about the topic of the day.

haha. i think they're funny.

2009-05-06T12:13:00.001+08:00

I LOVE jiaxin. says:
haha
talk cock as in ?
LOL. very funny leh
three ppl in my class say you boy already
hahahahahaha
some more is out of three(:

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Chy ت is an ultimate fucker says:
HUH
REALLY
WHY SIAL
OMG O:

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I LOVE jiaxin. says:
dont know
you see your classmates never say i boy also.
i also dont know why
HAHAHAHAH

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Chy ت is an ultimate fucker says:
WTF
ITS NOT EVENLINKED
LOL

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I LOVE jiaxin. says:
you ask why ma
then why your classmates never say i boy!?

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Chy ت is an ultimate fucker says:
..........
FUCK
Fine cause I look like?
LOL

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I LOVE jiaxin. says:
haha!
you ans it yourself(:

2009-05-05T22:54:00.002+08:00

hoping that someone might come by and take me out..

2009-04-29T12:22:00.000+08:00

i miss secondary school life.

i miss my friends:(

2009-04-27T23:06:00.003+08:00

at this very moment..

i just wished i will never grow up.

wish that things will just go the way i wanted it to be.

wish that time will go back for me.

but never.

never will these come true.

i feel so stress.

don't know is it that everyone must go through.

i wonder are there people who are facing the same problem as me.

you know, i just felt lost.

i don't belong.. to anywhere.

i just want to finish my school quickly.

hoping that three years would just pass when i wake up the next morning.

let's talk about my class.

i think they are quite friendly, lovable, nice people.

though i did talk to them, i still felt weird.

nobody even cares to ask me for lunch,

if i tag along with a group,

i will feel that i don't belong.

i don't know how to explain.

just feeling it that way..

my family.

my dad is always complaining that i'm always not at home.

saying that i don't treat my home as a home.

maybe like a hotel or what so ever.

saying that friends are more important than them.

i really don't understand.

wth are everyone's mind thinking about.

my bf.

always saying that my family is more important.

saying that he isn't important.

that i'm always putting my family at first placing.

alright, i admit.

yes, i do.

but i don't understand why you don't understand.

forget it.

nothing will goes the right way.

i just feel that whatever i do will never be right.

never be appreciated.

nobody will really knows what i'm going through now...

nobody will understand my stand.

fuck my life.

2009-04-25T14:42:00.003+08:00

just went to redsports to see the highlights.

i think this is nice.

they had a video of the last 2mins of 4quarter.

so exciting..

it's Anglican High vs Dunman Secondary.

http://redsports.sg/2009/04/20/anglican-high-dunman-basketball/

at the 4th quarter, Dunman was leading.

unfortunately ending it with a score of 47, 45, AHS won.

Chee Khan Liang had scored three 3pointer at the last 2min.

power siolzxzxzxz.

2009-04-24T14:19:00.002+08:00

Congrats to C Boys and Girls for getting 1st runner up in the north zone.

I'm really happy for you guys.

You all had already done your best, so i dont think anyone should be sad(:

Hope you guys will excel and contiune beating through the nationals.

All the best and good luck.

----------------------

Anyway, feel free to vote for chrians basketball players @

http://redsports.sg/2009/04/18/redsportsv-c-division-basketball/

2009-04-22T20:48:00.002+08:00

today's lesson..

nielson playing L4D in class-.-

i think the picture is really blur.

the game of rescue mission for the topic blood.

during lesson..

presentation

at playground with hubby..

2009-04-18T22:53:00.005+08:00

just wanna say i love you alot :D

and i missssssss you.

congrats to the C girls and boys of chr.

i'm proud to be your senior.

haha. well done and keep it up.

i really hope that i'll see both at finals.

wish you guys all the best for the upcoming matches.

school gonna start soon.

it's just this coming monday.

well, i had 3days of orientation and i pon the first day.

i it's quite bored though.

but my SL are super active and loud.

i managed to make some friends from SIT.

then i saw 15 of my classmates.

i'm going to spend 16 weeks with them.

i think my class gonna be quite fun.

cos they're funny ppl.

at least not so quiet.

i dont like quiet classes and lessons.=/

so yea.. looking forward to see the rest of my classmates.

and hoping that everything in school will turn out fine...

2009-04-17T20:00:00.003+08:00

at mos burger..

xin yu.

baka ting

moscot making at rp..
russell.

chopper or hammer-.-

keng yip.

the penguin's head.

the fire thingy..

the penguin guy wearing the head. haha.

watching match at rp..
my dumb hubby and me:D

looking at cars..

jianing, my sister.

i think this car is super cool.

2009-04-12T21:33:00.012+08:00

OMFG.

i'm VERY fat now.

let me think what i ate just these 3days.

friday was chilli & pepper crabs for dinner.

saturday was normal meals.

sunday was tim sum lunch,chilli crabs for dinner.

gosh. i really wonder who can resist the temptation of not eating.

i think going out with my family more really makes me fat.

alright. i'm gonna eat lesser, normal meals.

and more more more work out.

as for my weight now...

i dont even wanna know. haha!

i'm just gonna work out and get back to my previous weight first.

swimming tmr.

anyone wanna join?(:

let me think...

at least of 30laps.

or is it too little.=/

well, we'll see.

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msia trip with family..

my baby cousin.

he's cute yea?:D

so cool. we went into dead end-.-

cow~

jianing in car playing psp.

mouse trap. this is the first time i see it.=/

someone put fireworks..

dinner.

kawaii~

golfing.

our resort.

2009-04-11T23:05:00.009+08:00

streets that we passed.

shamus me and ron.

alicia. she always can laugh very loudly like nobody's business..
even when we're at supermarket.

ron toh

siri panda.

changi beach.

our ride there.

changi hospital

in the chalet...

they just cant stop playing on the bed.

HAHA. this is what she got for blocking infront of the cam! candid.

qi yang and alicia-.-

smiles(:

ching hong and qi yang stealing each other's view.

i didnt know who took this=/

2009-04-11T22:33:00.003+08:00

my dad took this picture of a 10,000 dollar note.

so cool. but i didnt had the chance to see it.=/

@ rp waiting for my laptop.

we're just too bored..

so took pictures(:

2009-04-05T12:04:00.010+08:00

seriously i got no idea how my laptop got the virus.
how stupid.
i cant even use the internet explorer.
i'm using my dad's now.
actually i dont use much though.
just because i'm too bored at home.
that's why i'm using it.
after my comp spoilt, i'm going out more often.

i'm spending more time outside now.

have been going out everyday, spending time with everyone.

i still think it isnt enough for you and me.

but i know that in future, we'll have more time tgt.

i believe that... but do you?

i doubt so.
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i really dont wanna quarrel with you everyday, everytime.
i'm as tired as you do.
i really really dont know how to express, in words, in actions.
i think i really really suck.
i dont fit to be anyone's gf, especially yours.
i'm stuck.
i'm lost.
i dont know what to do.
either way, we'll both get hurt too.
but i know we'll hold on.
until someday..
i dont know if we would last anymore.
cos you told me so.
i really regret that i got you into this.
i'm sorry, i'm really sorry.

it's all my fault.

2009-03-30T11:15:00.004+08:00

i've not been gyming for like 5days.

i went down by like 500g?

in 3days.

this is not great at all.

i think i'm becoming more and more lazy.

but i still playing basketball almost everyday.

i went down from 64kg to 59kg now since dont know when.

my next aim gonna be 55kg.

so i shall gym.

i hope i'll have motivation.

morning was a disaster.

went to toilet once before i go gym.

forgot to bring my towel along. how dumb-.-

having stupid running nose.

having no stamina to run.

i only ran for like freaking 30mins and it's 4.1km.

and i just went to toilet once again.

oh, and my mum forgot to leave money for me to go see doctor. zz.

it's okay.

i'm gonna meet someone in half an hour time.

if not i'm gonna be late.

i think i'll be late.

but i'm still sweating now~

nvm. i shall go bathe.

byeeee(:

2009-03-29T22:41:00.008+08:00

time flies, it dont stop for anyone.

how i wish i could have more time.

for everything.

yes, i admit i couldn't manage my time properly.

to share among everyone by my side.

you..

family..

friends..

i think that everyone are impt.

each of them are special.

especially you.

i really love my friends alot too.

i dont want bcos of spending alot of my time with you,

then end up neglecting them.

i dont wanna lose anyone by my side.

my precious..

my love..

i appeciate everyone who tolerate me,

who stand by my side,

who i vent anger to,

who cheer me up,

who listens to my troubles...

jkay.. my one and only.

xue li.. my longest good friend ever.

houyee.. always listening to me, stand by me when i need you.

weihao.. who always made me laughed.

hui ting.. always trusting me.

my family.. always by my side.

sheryl

yi jun

amelia

mich

amanda

eugene

yong kang

eden

you can say i'm asking too much.

there are too many ppl in my life.

to a point that i can't accomplish everyone's wishes.

but i'll try my best to.

to be everyone's gd friend.

i'll try to be there when they need me.

this is delicated to those names above.

cos i want you all to know that i love you.

and i'll always be there for you guys(:

BUT, i still love jkay most :D

2009-03-27T14:51:00.003+08:00

i cant do mcuh.

i dont make any difference.

i cant do any help.

i'm sucha extra, a loser.

i hate myself.

2009-03-25T15:21:00.001+08:00

why are we holding on for?

2009-03-25T02:46:00.003+08:00

ya...
what i said was all lies.
i'm just pretending.
i dont know what to say to you without your trust.
i'm so speechless right now.
i dont know what to say or do.
i'm just so lost.
i've never feel so bad before.
i feel like crying now,
pouring everything out.
i feel like dying,
just let everything end here.
i dont wanna face anything like this.
i hate it i hate it i hate it.

i wish i would just get bang by car and die straight away.
i wish i would get heart attack.
i wish i'm never born in this world.
it's really hurting me.
so much...
i'm crying, right now...

2009-03-24T03:40:00.002+08:00

i'm still wide awake.
i think will be slping really late tonight.
just tonight?
hopfully...

i'm starting to miss you more than i normally do.
i dont know why.
miss your voice,
your love,
your care and concern.
i dont like the feeling without those.

yes, ppl may think i'm mad now.
i'm crazy.
but i just cant get you out of my mind.
i need you more than i know...
i miss you..

gdnight.
hope you're slping tight right now.
swt dreams.

2009-03-24T01:02:00.003+08:00

i love you.. more than everyone or anything else.
but you never understand.
you can't see what i gave you.
and yet you only can see what's not given.
i still dont think i'm in the wrong.
or maybe i am, a lil...

how much do you want from me?
am i really that bad to you?
am i not good enough.
i dont think anyone's perfect.
so am i.

i did change, maybe just a lil.
even if it's a lil, i still did.
and it's for you...
just that you didnt know.
anyway you still dont believe, dont trust.
what's the point if i said anything.
it still doesnt change your mind.
isnt that so?

and yea, your trust in me is so lil...
so lil that i cant feel any.
so lil that you can doubt me.
i tried, i really did so.
how am i suppose to let you know?
how am i suppose to let you see?
when you dont have the trust in me...

:(

2009-03-15T21:50:00.008+08:00

today woke up early in the morning.
went for breakfast with family.
and out we go.
went to adias fair.
omg. there many bags, shirts, shoes, watches..
all in a discount price of at least 20%.
actually it's not all adidas.there also puma, nike, etc...
jianing bought bag, two shirt.
jiaqi bought bag, one shirt.
i bought one shirt and a watch.
total of 450 after discount.
yeah~ means i also have new bag to use:D

after shopping, ikea to eat hotdog.
it's nice.
then headed to marina barrage.
fyi, it's a reservoir.
after that we went to city link mall to eat fry ice cream.
it's not as nice as i thought it would be though.=/
i think most of the singaporean are at suntec or heading to suntec yea?
IT fair... how great.
we walked half way and got stuck there.
we can actually stop there because it was too crowded-.-
went back woodlands to eat dinner.
bbq chicken. yummy~
actually i think it's the chilli which is nice. haha.
finished dinner at about 6plus and home swt home.
pics...

2009-03-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

i dont like to quarrel.
i dont like it to be this way.
why must it be like this.
i hate it.
how much trust do you have in me.
how much do i mean to you...

2009-03-13T00:05:00.003+08:00

This week really pass so fast.
I will never have enough time of playing and enjoying.
I can't believe school is going to start in less than a month time.
Seriously, I don’t look forward going school at all.
Does anyone do?
How I miss secondary school life.
How I miss my friends and basketball.
The times we had were great.
How precious they are…
But only if you lose it, then only will you know how much they meant to you.

Okay. Enough of this.
This is a busy week.
Omg. Houyee and xueli gonna leave sg soon.
How I miss them.
So much…
Actually the main thing I blog today because I wanna say something to them.
Take care lots girls.
I hope time will fly as fast as this week do.
I hope I’ll get to see you two soon(:

2009-03-07T12:39:00.004+08:00

haha. i am here just to help advertise.
please read houyee's blog for more information to her bday.
well, yea.
i know many or rather some ppl think we're bitches who goes around to bitch about other ppl stuffs.
i know there are ppl out there may think we're just so whatever.
but who cares?
i really dont care about who and what everyone think about me anymore.
i don't need any friends who don't trust me.
just fuck off.
i'm seriously not pin pointing anyone.
i'm just saying for those who thinks like this?
whatever-.-
i don't give a damn about this anymore.
i'll just let it go on like i don't know anything that had happened before.

and yes, it's my fault.
i don't wanna explain anything.
just take it as that is.
NOBODY ELSE is involve with what i said.
it's just me.
trust me or not.
take it or leave it.

2009-03-05T10:55:00.002+08:00

finally changed my blog skin.
i'm so happy.
cos it's black and RED!:D
thanks to jianing for the blog skin.
i was kinda lazy to find though it's easy.=/

gonna gym later with dumb jkay.
he actually went back to slp when i've alrd called him twice.
how smart can he be.
nvm, i shall forgive him for being a pig.
k, i'm gonna ply my bridge awhile. tata~

你是我的最爱，
你是我的未来。

2009-03-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

finally... my days at scb are over.
means i've no more work.
alot of ppl are looking for work,
and here i am hoping that i've no work.
it just suck.
i just wanted more time with him.

so, last sat and sun...
chalet, bbq, sentosa beach balling was fun.
nevertheless i didnt forget it was tiring to plan all this fun.
i think that nobody really appreciate this.
nobody even bother to say thanks to the organizer.
it's all complains that i heard.
well, maybe i wasn't that good in organzing.
but i really did my best.
still, i wanted to thanks all those ppl who came to this gathering.
i love you guys(:
k, so back to sentosa.this are the pictures.

- o4.o3.2oo9

- 16.4o

2009-02-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

wtf. this is stupid.
fuck fuck fuck.
cb, knn, nb.
i dont understand la.
my life would be so much better without you,
or maybe not.
i really got no idea.
why isn't there anyone to help me to solve my problems.
i really feel like venting my anger on something, anything.
i feel like banging the wall, hitting the wall, bite something.
whatever.
i'm so irritated.

- 25.o2.2oo9
- 22:17

2009-02-25T11:21:00.000+08:00

i hope nothing will change,
nothing will affect us.
i hope everything's gonna be good.

2009-02-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

was working lately.
i'm trying saving money to go out, chalet and stuffs.
then i'm spending it off in a week.
my god. please save me.
ppl work have more money,
i dont see much different if i'm working or not.
this is stupid.
i know i can take extra money from my parents, but i dont want to.
so yea, stop saying my money can't be used finish.
it's just $30 for 5days excluding transport fees.
so i'm still normal.

anyway, tmr is yk's bday,
HAPPY BDAY CHAN YONG KANG
i hope you'll grow taller(:

so tmr he wanted to go out.
AND NOW, my parents are saying that they're going msia tmr!
wow, how smart. i just knew this thing like 30mins ago.
they're gonna nag, but i'm not gonna care.
what i'm going there is just shopping.
forget it. i shall tell myself there's nothing for me to buy.
yk's bday is more impt.
but he's a bad organizer.
i dont know where are we going neither do i know what movie are we watching.
and nobody else know.
he didnt even reply my msg.
how smart.
i hope everything will go well tmr.

the chalet.
omg, i cant believe that i went to sentosa ALONE to book the chalet.
this is kinda stupid.
nvm. it's worth for the gathering.
cos i love my clique.
it's confirm the date would be held on 28feb, 1march.
each person is paying $22, for 2days 1night.
but i it's confirm that everyone would be VERY full.
houyee know what i'm talking about. :D
that's all.

anyway, thanks alot yesterday.
altough i did complain for somethings,
i knew you tried your best,
i knew you used your heart.
it was really an unforgetable night.
i'm really happy though i didnt show,
or did i ?
whatever you do, i'll still love you as much.
i'll love you whoever you are.

- 21st february 2oo9
- 21:32

2009-02-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

there is two good people i wanna say about.
came in first is my dad.
omg. he is so nice to send houyee to chinese doctor and wait there.
after that send houyee and me back home.
how nice(:
second is houyee who asked her friend to buy me SAJC red shirt!
how sweet. haha.

anyway, i'm working this few days.
since last thrusday.
working really sucks.
seriously i can't go work everyday.
it's even more tiring than school.
my god, if you had the chance to try...
actually everyone is saying my work is slack and pay is good.
but i still think it's tiring.=/
i really think those adults are just too pro.
they can even OT.
i had 2 days rest alrd.
i think it's enough, and it's time to go back work on monday:(

okay, back to ball.
i've also been balling this few days since the day my dad said i can ball.
my skills really suck, even shooting suck.
the first day i went back to court.
wow. that's what i call suay in a row.
first was jkay hit the ball and the ball hit my head.
then someone poke my finger.
followed by ball hitting my chest.
lastly, jie ning stepped on my foot.
actually all this is still quite okay.
at least i just pain fro awhile only.
ytd stepped on wei xiang's foot and sprained my ankle-.-
now i can feel the pain even just normal walking.
i stupid thing is i can't tell my parents cos they'll say something AGAIN.
so whenever i walk must try to be normal.
on the same day, houyee sprain her ankle too.
her ankle is as bad as i am that time.
xue li, pray for her to get well soon. haha.
take care houyee.
oh well, the most stupid guy who sprain his ankle is hongkit.
LOL. this is funny.

jiaxin : how's your ankle
hongkit : not okay. swelling haha
jiaxin : HAHA. dumb ass. how you do it ?
hongkit : eh what, you also what. do what ?
jiaxin : lol
hongkit : haha. stupid
jiaxin : mine is step on weixiang foot.
hongkit : also got twist until what.
jiaxin : yours is twist yourself one right
hongkit : yeah haha. step on the floor.
jiaxin : LOL. HAHAHAH. STUPID. FLOOR ALSO CAN INJURED!
hongkit : because i jump too high haha.

omg. what a joke.
btw, i think i am a bad organizer.
i haven plan finish for the chalet.
okay, i'm gonna get everything done tmr(:
i'll try. haha.
so that's all. i'll update again.

2009-02-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

wow. i saw everyone updating their blogs with pics.
that's like finally?
houyee, it's not i dont wanna pass to you the USB.
is i too forgetful.
i also have pics with you okay.
anyway, i really feel that you guys rock.
without my friends my life would be really meaningless.

oh ya, i suddenly rmbed something!
xue li asked me to plan chalet at coasta sand cos she got the voucher.
asss. i dont know which day who not free.
okay, it's time to spam asking(:
this is the pics taken during my bday celebration or coach's hse.
okay done, next update will be up sooon. haha.

- 2o:48

- o5.o2.2oo9

2009-02-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

i am very very sad !
argh. why can't i get into NYP !
assssssss.
nb. moe's fault. =x
i am going rp, business information system.
oh well, but i still decided to appeal sports and leisure management.
it's bcos of xue li words, i think. haha.
i'm alrd not interested in IT but wanna try to take up.
after hearing what she said, i still think i take up sports better.

ytd xue li, hy, mich, manda, jkay, yk, eugene, eden, dylan and weixiang came to my hse to play poker and mj.
omg. it's so funny.
i can't control my luck.
when we're playing blackjack, i can get 21 for 4times in a row -.-
but i am not using my own money to play, is helping ppl.
so yeah, i am not getting any money.
but just for fun. :D
but sadly i only helped hy win $6.
jk $12, eden $26.
i won $1.10 at uncle foo's hse.
at least i didnt lose.
chy is the big winner of mj.
i think both round she win about 12?
omg. owned. -.-
i love to play mj, but the speed is SLOW!
we're like gambling this few days.
hope we dont become gamblers in future. =/

anyway houyee, yk, eugene is starting work tmr.
i just hope they dont late for work.
boring days are ahead once again.
i'm wondering what am i gonna do if i am not working.
tsk. wth is india doing?! can they send the info here faster!
so that i can go back to do my work.
haha. but i'm going back to science park with houyee they all on tue cos need to do something.
after doing i think i'm going back home -.-
nvm. i shall go gym and swim alone.
i will blog again some other time. byeeee.

- 11:38
- o1.o2.2oo9
- i'mmissingyou:D

2009-01-22T13:52:00.000+08:00

well, many many things going on this few days.
i miss school so much.
i think i'm doing nothing meaningful during this hols.
wth. can we start work alrd~
i'm starting to get a lil bored.

firstly, congrats chr b boys for beating deyi 20points.
it's their first match.
hope they will cont to do well.

oh, and i wanna thanks ppl who came for my bday.
those who came down after work also. thanks alot guys.
then ppl who sent me msg or call during 12am plus plus.
andy for being the first
eden
yi jun
eugene called and sang to me.
leong kiat
JKAY(after i told him it's my bday, how nice of him to forget)
chin wei
jeff
amelia
houyee
sheryl
pang
xin yu
mich
manda

okay. it's time to go swimming now.
i shall blog again next time. =/
tata~

- 22.o1.2oo9
- 14.o3

2009-01-14T14:41:00.000+08:00

well, taken my results few days ago.
hmmm. what shall i say about it.
i passed, can say it's good.
can go for some courses, but not those i wanted.
it's all because of my english-.-
my results,
english - seven
maths - three
combined hum - three
combined sci - seven
poa - eight
chinese - six
nice right. how stupid can i get.
grats those who passed.
those who failed, i hope they dont get so sad. cheer up.
i almost wanted to go ite.
no, actually if i cant get into the course i wanted,
i think i'll just appeal to ite.
i cant even retain. bullshit-.-
eugene and yk gonna retain.
well, study hard guys.
hope you'll will get much better results.
and maybe i can help a lil. haha.
k, i shall end here and wtf, i'm super late meeting hy. zzz.

- 14.o1.2oo9
- 14:49

2009-01-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

really, i just feel like a fool.
i dont know what the fuck am i doing now.
come on, please let me get bang by the car or something on the road.
so i can die straight away and i dont need to think so much.
can someone please kill me.
if not support me then.
i feel so tired.
i need a break from my life.
from everything i'm doing right now.